Been doing some cathing up…
September 16, 2008
So I started talking to God again. Not in the scary way like talking to trees and animals because I think God is in them, but in the way that I should have been for a long time. Lately it has been real easy for me to push God aside because I’m just so busy.
This Sunday my pastor, Chuck Lewis-pastor of my church-the @nchor, was talking about choices. He was telling us that every decision we make every minute of every day is a choice. We choose to be busy. I started to roll that around in my brain a while to let it sink in and came to an understanding. I told myself, “Self, it’s time you stop choosing to be busy and start choosing to spend time with God.” So that’s what I’ve been doing. I’ll tell you something, it has been an eye-opening experience. I had forgotten what life can be like when I get out of the way and let God work. I found out that God really does love me and wants to be my friend.
I used to do this thing when I was a kid and talk to God all the time. I would talk to Him about every little thing and I never felt like God wasn’t interested in what I was saying. Then I started to get “too old” to be doing such a thing. I would think, “Imagine what my friends would say if they knew I was praying all the time.” When we’re young, we don’t really think about what other people might think of us. Then somewhere we start worrying more about other people’s view of us than about God’s view. That is even true now that I’m 27. I have been choosing to live my life in what the world would think of me rather than what God would think of me.
So, I started talking to God again. I see now what I have been missing. My relationship with God has been put on the back burner and it has showed. I’ve been going to church and even been heavily involved for some time now and I haven’t even once turned to God and said, “What’s up man. It’s just me saying how you doin’.” I’ve been doing this for a day and a half now and I have felt so at peace with life.
I hope that if you’re reading this and you have been in the same boat as me for a while that maybe you’ll choose to talk with God again. He really can change your life. So if you’re driving down the road and see some dude who is talking to himself in the truck, don’t laugh. It’s probably just me catching up.
